what i wrote below now seems to be so useless ler ):
i must stay strong . yeah i realise feeling do fade fast
nth can last forever . maybe , it is time to say goodbye to my loves xD
without you i belive i can stay strong still (:
JEANIE JIA YOU!!
this is who i am , hate me then just go away!!
promises are meant to be broken -
stop giving me stupid reasons -.-
LOVE LIFES SUCK!
i love all my friends (: yeahs i do !
last but not least, LESLIE IS GONNA BE MY ENTERTAINER FOR A MONTH!
LOLS. thanx orh :D
i miss tiffy(:

12:13AM
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first of all i have edit my skin abit (:
heh heh xD
i think today shall be my longest post ever.
i wanna pour out all my feelings and thought today

this is for you , my love
somehow i felt that the distance between us is getting further apart
what is happening ?
i undertstand that sometimes what i did indeed is over childish
however this is who i am , if you truly love me , u have to accept me for being like this
i really don't noe whether this few days are you hiding away from me ?
at least gave me a message hao ma ?
sometimes i waited for the whole day just to get a message from you
i was wondering , isit that you had lost feeling for me ler
tts why you are treating me that way
i am sorry for being over sensitive
but this is how he treated me in the past.
i fall so deeply until i met you.
u make me have the courage to accpet love again
i do not want to run away from problems
so i have decided to write out how i felt
it was not that i had no trust in you
just because i love you just simply too much , i am afraid of being hurt again
forgive me for that .
i had no confidence in myself that your love for me would last super long
i hate myself for that
i love you for who you are . i had never regret to be with you
please , atleast gave me a message even u are bz , telling me you are not free now
message me later . just one is enough
i just wanna feel better and not think too much
i know that i am thinking too much
but please give in to me for this , i just wanna feel better
what i need is an unbroken promise
i know that meeting up is a problem between us too
i know that u wanna meet me more oftenly and to spend times with you alone
i wanted that too . whenever i had the time i would want to spend it with you
i tried to atleast meet you even if it is only a short while
what i need is yr understanding as u know how my suituation is like
i cant go out many days and cannot stay outside for long.
sorry if i have neglacted you , i promise that i would spend more time with you k (:
do you noe that this few days u did not message me , you noe how i spend my days
worrying for you , thinking wondering why are you treating me like tt
is there anything i have done wrong
i cant fall alslp at night , i cant concentrate in lesson time
sometimes i would even cry for that.
i noe i look stupid but i am really very afraid you may leave me one day
what will i become to. wo xiang wo shi tai yi kao ni ler
i cant imagine what will happen to me if you left me
ahhhhh! limin told me that , if after telling you everything still cant solve the problems
i have to really let go , even how much of bu se de it is .
i do not know will you get to read this
but if u have readed it , could you just tell me do you still love me and promise that you will never let me go.
tell me the true cause i dun wan any lies from you even it hurts ,
but i swear i will stand up again
telling you this is not to get anything from you
cause i know that running away from this will not solve the problems.
i want you to understand me tts why i wanted to tell you
i do not want to hide any secrets between us
tell me how u feel and what you think
cause i want to undertstand you more too
if you still love me , hold on to me and prove it to me
and lets solve all the problems together
i belive that our love will be strong enough to over come every problems that happens (:
ILOVEYOU!

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yet , i felt better after wrtting all out
hmm i think i have been over sensitive . but i hope he will be able to understand and i belive he will!
anyway , i have make myself and him a chocalate (:
nice nice xD
however we make up a mess in the kitchen
LOL
stupid us -.-
went to lot 1 to buy the ingredients and went off to limin house and do it
doing some for him too (:
hope he like it . lalas =x
ahhhhh he is working now ?
yupp . don't tired yrself too much k
you looking for a work too ? ya , hope yr interview goes well (:
lalas =x
after the chocalate making
i went back home
heh heh
on my way back leslie called me , ask me to go to the playground we go ytd -.-
the aim for asking me to go there is wanted me to buy drinks for them
si kukussss !! LOL
hahas super funny ah
then stayed there for quite a while
jokes and lame around there . that stupid leslie . what he do can always make us
laugh like mad sia . why ah ? hahas but is good la better then crying rite =pp
hmm ytd saw tiffy , mark"s dog
ahhhh! super cute la . ma der
play with her , lols
adeline is being chase by tiffy . lols
who ask her run , of cause tiffy will run after you ah . hahahas =x
sians!
si winnie , keep using her hp to record my stupid act -.-
like reporters chasing after me like that -.- baichi seh
yup went home after that (:
nth to write anymore ?
lols is my post today long enough ? lalas =x
you want more ? LOL
anyway , i have to thanx my sushi min
for couraging me to write evrything out
and giving me advise (:
and ya , MARK ANG CHENG JIE!
must treat winnie super good okays! if not YOU SHALL DIE!!!!
hahahas =x
yao en ai k . for this i cannot lose out christine and ahem ahem lar
we are not invisible in class okay! lools
stay sweet lar (:

I LOVE YOU
I MEAN WHAT I SAY!

JEANIE*